These lightning times are trouble

just so were all on the same page

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 20:24:41 GMT

i hate everything

hope

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Sat, 05 Dec 2009 00:12:26 GMT

Boys who act like your in a relationship but wont call it that

...yet

why?

Edit: please im actually asking. any theories would be great...

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Tue, 24 Nov 2009 03:14:44 GMT

boys are the pinnacle of confusing

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 04:03:34 GMT

New boy

Too early to tell

ooooh, but i do like him so!

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Sun, 20 Sep 2009 22:15:30 GMT

what is this? what what a few drinks? well hello crazy child

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Sun, 06 Sep 2009 03:53:46 GMT

My heart is a terrible messy broken thing. I don't even want to look at it these days. Sexual anarchy is devastating to emotional health. About myself, i learned something, anatomy did me a wrong turn and placed my heart on this ridiculous spot on my wrist.

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Mon, 06 Jul 2009 21:17:40 GMT

i desperately want all the things i can't have

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 20:23:15 GMT

i miss katie

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Mon, 22 Jun 2009 22:36:47 GMT

My life sucks

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Wed, 03 Jun 2009 03:45:03 GMT

new boy

such is my life these days

will update again when I've fought off the cynicism

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Thu, 28 May 2009 21:44:31 GMT

is officially on summer break

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Tue, 28 Apr 2009 03:01:14 GMT

possible new boy

nice and smart and goofy

and good for my spirits after the Davin failure

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Tue, 21 Apr 2009 05:21:59 GMT

I have had a personal epiphany. I am going to start a period of sexual and emotional personal anarchy. I believe it is the only way to find out who i am, what kind of person i want to be,and what kind of person i want to be with. I'm not going to fight my emotions or behaviors, I'm gonna let impulses guide my future for a while and just try to be very basically human. not ignore the neocortex by any means but acknowledge those older deeper parts of the human brain.

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Sun, 19 Apr 2009 17:07:34 GMT

ignore last post. Now it seems i've become early Sunday morning fuck buddy.

This is easier on me than yesterday assumption

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Sat, 18 Apr 2009 20:56:25 GMT

I'm rather immune to the being felt up and left deal

but being fucked and then left is a new horizon that seems as if it may have just opened in my life

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Thu, 16 Apr 2009 06:27:28 GMT

I'm seeing a night of very little sleep in my immediate future. this is what i get for napping from 6-8...poooo

there will be much coffee in my morning

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Mon, 06 Apr 2009 23:46:32 GMT

so i've posted about biology and my new reason for going

i believe you remember

done and done and done.

now i have no reason to go

this is actually making me very very angry

i got more than 100 on my last test boosting me to the top of the class. and so i didn't go to lec or lab today. this might be bad...

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Fri, 03 Apr 2009 20:53:11 GMT

eee

i am so excited about my life right now

there's the doing good in school bit, that is very very awesome

but there's also the bit about Davin and his pretty pretty sad blue eyes

gah

...update:

snog snog snog snog

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Wed, 01 Apr 2009 22:11:50 GMT

so, i am pointedly not studying and planning potential tattoos. I want to run this idea past you guys.

so i want to get a ship on the inside of each ankle (just like a little outline sketch) and then maybe "we pass and speak one another only a look and a voice." ships that pass in the night...? eh? eh?

tell me what you think. is it dumb? when i told anna she called me a dork. would it be too much? i don't know...

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Mon, 30 Mar 2009 17:37:44 GMT

Auuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuughhhh!

so little sleep
so much Coffee!!!!

emoemoemoiknowletmehavemyfeelings

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Sun, 29 Mar 2009 07:29:43 GMT

There's a big sadness
that comes sometimes, and doesn't offer any reason. It mocks me. 'you thought you were better, i own your brain chemistry.' i stare at the wall but i don't make pictures in the bumps, and wounder which girl is me.

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Mon, 23 Mar 2009 22:13:47 GMT

I've found a new way to stay interested in bio. she posted everyones grades on the lab door today and i'm 4th in the class. i will at least be 2nd by the end of the semester, and this is how i will motivate myself to go every day

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Tue, 24 Feb 2009 04:50:11 GMT

sickness

bleh

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Wed, 04 Feb 2009 19:10:50 GMT

so, Davis doesn't just except transfer agreements for winter, they no longer accept any students at all. Because i won't have 60 units by the end of this semester, my appeal for late acceptance will be shoved to the very end of the line. If i don't get in with late acceptance i don't know what i will do. i don't know if my mom will let me take three years at butte.

ugh

i'm freaking out a lot

unmarkedboxofrain@hotmail.com — Tue, 03 Feb 2009 01:55:53 GMT

I am all reved up and angrey

I found out today that Davis is no longer making transfer agreements for winter session. You must understand that when i went in last time I asked about 5 million times if this agreement was a sure thing and was assured that it was, 5. million. times.

so, now i am very pissed, and am going to kick some transfer counselor ass when i go in on Wednesday.

SO, now my options are: Actually apply for winter 10 or

Appeal a late application for the fall

which i am doing now

i have two recomendation letters coming from my psychology teacher and my english teacher

this is what i have so far

Dear Appeals Committee,

I am currently a student at Butte Community College in Oroville, CA. I am looking to attend your school starting Fall ’09 as a transfer student. Due to incorrect information given to me by Butte College student employees I was unable to make an agreement to transfer this coming fall. I was assured by Shelly Slightom, a Transfer Counselor at Butte College, that I would be able to make an agreement to transfer Winter 2010. She assured me that it would be best to wait, take an extra semester at Butte College, and enter Davis with a Transfer Agreement Guarantee. However, when I made my appointment to write the agreement I was informed by Raymond Rodriguez, another Transfer Counselor, that your school was no longer accepting agreements for winter transfers. I am ready and eager to leave the community college setting, and would appreciate the opportunity to become part of your student body as soon as possible. Due to the above sequential circumstances and events, my plan to write my transfer agreement in February 2009 is no longer viable. I am hopeful that you will accept this letter of appeal for my late application to your university.

I feel like i should mention my major, but i'm not sure of how to insert it into this.

HOPEfullness!!!!!!!!!